The Aftermath

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It's been two months since I had my D&C. Sometimes, I think about our would-be twin babies. I think about what I did wrong. Were we not that careful in our activities and actions? Should I have gone to a specialist instead of a regular OB GYN? Should I have undergone a complete bed rest during the pregnancy? Too many questions and wishful thinking.

Sometimes I still cry whenever I think about what happened to me and our babies. I tell myself that I should move on and think about what I can do to help my body and mind heal.

Waiting for an Open Window - The Last Part

Inay and I went to my OB and told her about my condition. Dra. did an internal examination of my pelvis and she said that it was a good thing my uterus wasn't open. 

She diagnosed "Threatened abortion." I was stunned! You don't want to hear the word "abortion" when you've waited so long to have a baby.

Waiting for an Open Window Part 2

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As a first-time pregnant couple who waited five years to conceive, we tried hard to keep the good news to ourselves. I asked my husband to postpone telling his family about it and make the announcement on Christmas. But, since he's so excited, he already told his family even before we visited an OB GYN. :)

On Christmas Eve, we gave my parents a small gift. Inside was a pair of little socks and a note. At first, Inay didn't get the information on the note which said to expect someone coming in mid-August, 2015. When it dawned on her that I was with child, she cried hard and thanked God for an answered prayer. We were all misty eyed during dinner.

Waiting for an Open Window Part 1

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In 2013, my husband and I stopped having fertility treatments. Not only was it expensive, it was emotionally exhausting. After taking several rounds of Clomid, follicle monitoring sessions, taking an HSG, two IUIs, a year of acupuncture, tons of Chinese herbal tea, we decided that it was enough for us now. Whew!

We put our plans on hold to have a baby. I resigned from a stable employment to stay at home and start doing freelance work. Most of our income was put into doctors' fees, laboratory fees, medicines, and transportation costs. We're thankful that God gave us the resources to pursue treatments which we thought would help us conceive.

Where to Start...

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It's been more than half a year since I last visited my blog. I've been kept busy with freelance work, construction of our house, budgeting our budget while keeping sane, etc.

I have a lot of stories to tell, but not enough time to do it. So, I'll just take it one at a time, in no chronological order.