What Made My Heart Melt

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Hubby just signed his employment contract with a new employer. His joining date is next week. Tentative. Hopefully, the date on the contract would be delayed so we could still have a few days to be together.


He joined a new company which provides good benefits: health insurance, Internet load, 6 months on board, loyalty rewards, etc. We hope that this is the company where he'll retire from being a seaman. 

These past weeks, Hubby was always in Manila for training, filing and receiving of certificates, submitting requirements. He leaves early in the morning and comes home at night. It's almost as if he has a day job.

And yesterday, he learned that he'll be leaving soon. Too soon for our liking.

We're sad because we'll be apart again. We've been apart for most of the year ever since we became a couple but every time he's leaving saddens our hearts still. I don't think a couple could become used to this. 

To overcome this sadness, we just think of our future to lighten the mood. We think about the things we'll save up for, the places we would visit, our future plans. We justify his leaving as a means to meet our many projects in the future.

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This morning as I was laying in bed, Hubby laid next to me and said, 

"OK na sa 'kin kahit hindi tayo magka-anak basta OK tayo. Magkasama tayo." 

(It's OK with me if we won't be able to have our own child as long as we're together.)

I almost cried right then and there. He has said this sentiment before but every time he says it, my heart is just filled with joy and gratitude for this man God gave me. 

A loving man, a responsible man. A man who loves me more now despite my being unable to carry his child. I don't know how to repay his love and understanding. 

All I know is how to love him back, support his dreams and patiently wait for his return.